But I think I need more time being their son before I'm their degenerate gambler son. Just as if everyone knew, the topic of conversation over dinner was gambling last night.
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Slot machines are gamb,ing thing. I would go to the arcade at dinner time when I went to school, or into town on the weekends to spend all my pocket money. I guess I graduated to more serious money when I left school and got a job in a pub glass collecting. I'd be happy to lose 20, 30 quid on the bandit even if that was a big percentage of my wages. As I got older I was promoted to the bar and eventually assistant steward.
As the position went up, gzmbling wages went up, the gambling went up. More recently I'd signed up to Betfred to try my hand at gambling away from work. Roulette 21 again, video slots were my thing. That should of been the end of it.
But for the fact I'm here, we all know it wasn't. I lasted roughly 1 week before I was gambling again. I'm absolutely mortified to say the least. I've no idea where to go from here. That money was supposed to go towards a new house next year. This is where my problems lie. I can't bare the thought of telling my parents who have basically wiped my arse for 30 years. It's llost going to come out eventually when I try to get a mortgage and they check my financial history.
Further still, my girlfriend who has always struggled financially, will never understand. I just can't face them. I'm basically eyeing up as much stuff in my possession that I have to sell. Try and claw some of it back.
That's just never going to happen. Just a few after thoughts since reading a few people's comments on here. I guess I'm s gambling as bad as some people losing hundreds of thousands, but the demons are the same for all of us. Since I signed up to here a lkst hours ago I've checked Betfred about six times to see if they've given me any bonus cash to play with. I'm not sure what I'd do if they did to be honest.
Gamble it, or bank it. Either way, there's nothing there and I've nearly lasted a whole day without gambling. Big whoop for me. The thought of telling my loved ones still haunts me. I really don't think I can face it. Maybe see if Losr can keep this up before I commit to anything. I've always taken pride in being straight. I talk a bit of shit, but who doesn't.
One thing I've never been though is a liar, so this is quite difficult for me. I think if I was asked out right I would confess all. But at the moment I'm telling myself that it's not lying if nobody knows in the first place. I can't help myself. It's going to be very hard to stop. Before I started this diary it had been 37 days straight gambling.
Hey Adam, thanks for sharing and welcome to the forum. I was never able to hold onto the money I had available neither. I could never leave a loser. I would either be up for the session and quit or gamble, stepping up if necessary, to the bitter end. It was in an account in a different country where it would take 2 or 3 days for it to clear into my current account and only then I could use it for gambling.
In addition to that the amount I was able to transfer on any single day was limited. So whenever I was steaming out of my ears which was often I could only lose the money I had available and never the money that was put aside. By the time I transferred the money back to my current ga,bling and it cleared I wouldn't be steaming so badly.
Also, whenever I won anything meaningful I would wire it to the account I didn't have an easy access to. Anyway that money you had is gone and you can't have it back. It is no longer yours. What you can do is make sure you don't lose more. Actually you can make sure you never lose another penny. Easier said than done, I know. I've been fighting my demons for decades and I gambled as recently as yesterday. I would recommend that you read "the easy way to stop gambling" by allen carr.
It is quite a good book. Did you honestly think there was a slightest chance you would not gamble with it? I'm not trying to rub it in or anything, I just think it's highly unlikely you honestly thought you would not gamble the money readily available in your betting account. Not to mention losst fact that you probably can't cash out bonus money till you meet their betting requirements i. Hello, thanks for posting. I'm not sure about the bonus to be honest.
I was genuinely hoping to just cash it in. But it proved to tempting. Just as if everyone knew, the topic of conversation over dinner was gambling last night. I didn't know where to look. I feel so ashamed. Today's a new day. I slept better last night. It's the first time for about 6 nights I've not been alone in bed with my gamblint. I Woke up with a sense of dread as I remembered what I'd done.
Got a horrible numb feeling in my stomach that's still lingering. Sold a pair of Dirk Kuyt's match worn boots last night to another collector. Or for something else maybe? Felt suicidal but would do it again, had an epiphany, im betting to win BIG losing hundreds weekly wouldnt matter if it works out, if it doesnt then welli tried and took the risk, sensible Adam, I feel for your story.
It is so similar to mine and I guess many others. It is the worst feeling in the world. Over 3 years of gambling pokequitting, relapsing, losing etc etc I have lost my life gamvling but more importantly my self respect. Now my busienss is gamblinf trouble, my marriage is over and I have to rebuild.
I read so many blogs by ex gambler and they all lost the same things. Take one day at a time and be kind to lost. We all make mistakes, god knows I have. Over the losr few weeks I have been deep in remorse for so many things, but that is gettng me nowhere. No one's life is perfect, far from it, and we all up. I am trying now to move on, be kind to myself and rebuild what I have lost.
My life will never be the same again, but hopefully now it will be better and so will yours. Keep posting whenever you need - don't keep thoughts in your head, it is much better to get them out. The great thing about this site is that you can then see what you wrote and where you were at does say gambling sin bible certain time.
Truth is you chose the chance to win over lifes jackpot, learn from it dont dwell on it, it will olst you up. Hi Adam, why not close that gambling account? Better yet, why not ask them to ban you?Yesterday I lost the last of my wages to the fobt's in the bookies, I'm . Tbh, I am amazed how much betting shops are allowed to advertise in. I recently lost £11, from a£17, life savings account. . I read so many blogs by ex gambler and they all say the same things. Take one day at a time and. Chris Stringman with his wife, Claudia, and son, Finn. What is financial spread betting and why do most people lose at it? Repeat, starts starkly: “To my wife and family, I apologise.”.